Confessions

I haven’t witnessed

your struggle

for freedom.

Not seen you

strive, protest and preserve

your soil from vultures,

eager to feast on

the humanness in you.

 

But I have read,

lines of smudged poetry-

written

between

pressed times

and

grieving

mothers.

 

I have heard,

songs of bravery

that tugged at my

young heart,

and showed me

for the first time,

what passion means,

for the motherland.

 

I have preserved

fallen flags

off the ground,

pieces of art,

after every celebration-

marked with

shoe-marks

and earth embellishments.

 

Soaked them in water,

so its smeared vanity

can dissolve

its identities,

its life no longer

a symbol-

just a white paper

with unlimited possibilities.

 

I have cried and grieved,

romanticized over film rolls of devoted

women and men,

who fought for your

humanness,

stripping away

their lives

day after day.

 

I am your devout,

my part of earth,

perused you through

art and history.

Everything about me,

is indirect, unsure and impassioned.

Your ‘new age’ patriot,

avant-garde and low-key.

 

Seen your life today,

and imagined that

in simpler times of your

founding years

you must be

glorious

and

young.

 

So I sit here, in my arm-chair

raging my own war

at your present condition,

insinuating passion

at around the block bars

and new age coffee shops,

off the curb poetry

and empathetic seminar lessons.

 

My love for you,

as lukewarm

as my

cup of coffee.

 

c6
lukewarm/ adjective
1.moderately warm; tepid.
2.having or showing little ardor, zeal, or enthusiasm; indifferent
c4
empathetic/ adjective
1.of, relating to, or characterized byempathythe psychological identification with feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of others
c1
motherland/ noun 
1.one’s native land.
2.the land of one’s ancestors.
3.a country considered as the origin or source of something.
c3
patriot/ noun 
1.a person who loves, supports, and defends his or her country and its interests with devotion.
2.a person who regards himself or herself as a defender, especially of individual rights, against presumed interference by the federal government.

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